Mother’s day is always a difficult day for me. In my heart of hearts, I truly believed that one day God would bless me with children of my own. Every year on Mother’s Day, I’m reminded that I don’t have the children. As much as I have wanted to, I have never had the opportunity to experience the highs and lows of motherhood. Almost every mom I know says, it’s the hardest job they have ever had but also the most rewarding thing they have ever done in life.
I used to spend so much time depressed and feeling like I was missing out of life because I didn’t have a family of my own. I was overjoyed when my friends had kids, yet I felt a jealously creeping because I felt like my life was standing still and I didn’t know my purpose. As I began to reconnect with God a few years back, He placed some amazing people in my life who have given me a whole new perspective. They changed my way of thinking and helped me see my larger purpose and significance in life.
I started thinking about all of the wonderful blessings I have been given and began to realize that my life is so full. I decided to start focusing on the things that make my life blessed. God has a greater plan for my life and I can have a huge impact on those around me. I would have missed out of so many relationships and experiences if I had children of my own. I would have loved my children but I truly love my life just the way God designed it. I am lucky enough to have six kids, whom my amazing friends let me borrow, which I think of as nieces and nephews (a few pictured above with me). Many of them even call me “Aunt Susie.” They bring me joy beyond words every time I spend time with them. I also have the time in my life to volunteer as a Big to a child who needs someone to give them focused attention. through Big Brothers Big Sisters.
So Happy Mother’s Day to all women who have a mother’s heart, whether you have kids, wanted kids or are happy borrowing others kids. Enjoy the life you have been given and look for the blessings which God has provided in your life.